tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-67723342991173032902024-03-05T03:46:55.174-05:00pull up then downprovided by the management for your protectionameliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01370740221953398207noreply@blogger.comBlogger216125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6772334299117303290.post-58074784833924082782010-03-14T12:51:00.002-04:002010-03-14T12:52:09.064-04:00a new direction.see you there.ameliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01370740221953398207noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6772334299117303290.post-64543084930716997672010-02-05T20:39:00.002-05:002010-02-05T20:50:36.272-05:00the end.i am at the end of a chapter. maybe the end of an entire book. the awkward bumps and fits that were me, settling into being a new yorker again? they're pretty much over. i live here. i was born very nearby, i was raised very nearby. i am home.i have learned some painful lessons since i have been here about friendship and relationships in general. i have had to let people go - new friends and ameliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01370740221953398207noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6772334299117303290.post-59992145851157385292010-01-28T19:00:00.002-05:002010-01-28T19:14:09.889-05:00the man, himself.so, j.d. salinger has passed on. i knew it would be soon. i knew he was born in 1919. i knew he was old. and now that he's gone, the one hope and prayer i have is that the man has some completed and publishable manuscripts. please. please. please. i have been waiting since i was 16 years old to read another book by jerome david salinger, and i knew it would never happen, as long as he lived.i ameliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01370740221953398207noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6772334299117303290.post-90978466739628953032010-01-24T23:23:00.002-05:002010-01-24T23:31:29.157-05:00what's new with meI gave up on posting every day because I ran out of things to say. I placed a hold request for a book at the library and there are 52 other hold requests in front of me. If everyone that held it gets it, I will be able to read the book in approximately two years. Not really, because the library does own 4 copies. And there are also inter-library loans, which are also currently all checked out. Soameliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01370740221953398207noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6772334299117303290.post-26054061292282663242010-01-21T22:09:00.001-05:002010-01-21T22:11:09.041-05:00looking forward. thankful.i'm looking forward to a friday, a weekend, and a short little drive on sunday. i'm thankful for my darling rico, who makes my life better just by being in it.i'm thankful for people.they surprise you, if you will let your guard down long enough.xoaimsameliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01370740221953398207noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6772334299117303290.post-86862758038380773462010-01-20T21:16:00.002-05:002010-01-20T21:24:08.064-05:00i've found my calling.it's reader. professional reader.i used to be one, once upon a time. i was blessedly able to read, absorb, proof, and edit for about three years. the problem with doing it for a living is that by the time i was done, i did not want to read another word. that meant that my hobby of reading became nonexistent. when i was little? i used to read shampoo bottles in the shower. that's how much i loved ameliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01370740221953398207noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6772334299117303290.post-86288800902477609332010-01-19T21:11:00.003-05:002010-01-25T10:27:33.681-05:00A mish-mash, at best.Why does my neck still ache, 6 days later? Why does the shower head start dripping and never stop? Why haven't I written a book, if all I can seem to do lately is sneer at predictable plots and weak character development? Why are Hershey's Kisses so irresistible to me? Last night, no kidding, Eric asked me if I was going to get my hair cut, or "do something so that it doesn't look like a tail." Iameliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01370740221953398207noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6772334299117303290.post-85879853010041227852010-01-18T20:32:00.004-05:002010-01-18T20:37:50.117-05:00helpI'm beat. My brain is fried. Work is... sapping all of my brain power. When I get home, all I can do is read. Or stare at the computer screen. Tonight I finished reading an old favorite - Franny and Zooey. It's one I've read several times, and one I was almost positive that I owned. However, I had to check it out of the library. I must have either lost it or given it away. I have moved too many ameliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01370740221953398207noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6772334299117303290.post-75390968841935261072010-01-17T19:54:00.002-05:002010-01-17T19:58:06.953-05:00The best way to explain why I hate Sunday nights......is probably just to show you. This is how I have felt during the past few weeks at work. By Friday I feel like I have been through a meat grinder a couple of times. nataliedee.comameliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01370740221953398207noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6772334299117303290.post-55068144485346377402010-01-16T20:34:00.002-05:002010-01-16T20:42:39.780-05:00Saturday Best: Relationship habitsI had a great phone conversation today, and it sparked some ideas in my brain for some writing projects. In addition to that, I realized that I have kind of developed some best practices for relationships. They might seem to be common sense. Believe me, they are not.Be yourself.Be honest.Talk about expectations. Let expectations go, when necessary.Be willing to admit you're unreasonable at ameliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01370740221953398207noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6772334299117303290.post-9120089916752555732010-01-15T23:48:00.003-05:002010-01-15T23:55:12.102-05:00best fiance (rhymes with beyonce) in the whole world.yeah. so, before we got engaged, eric told me he would only propose if i referred to him as my fianCE. with a flourish. not if i pronounced it like beyonce. isn't that odd?anyway. i just got like, a ten minute shoulder and neck rum. rub. i can hardly keep my eyes open, and then i remembered that i forgot to post. we just finished watching rachel getting married, which was good and weird. it made ameliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01370740221953398207noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6772334299117303290.post-70411743835512686952010-01-14T20:15:00.002-05:002010-01-14T20:21:46.039-05:00Today, pain nearly got the best of me.I woke up this morning with extreme neck pain. Not just "I slept funny" kind of pain. It was involuntary muscle spasm, doubled over in pain kind of pain. I didn't know what to do. I couldn't move. I could barely blink. Or swallow. The slightest movement sent me into a spasm so painful that I had to cry out in pain. Tears were rolling down my face. It was terrible. I can't imagine what it must be ameliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01370740221953398207noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6772334299117303290.post-64873971421632479412010-01-13T08:48:00.002-05:002010-01-13T09:02:46.234-05:00One of the best compliments I've ever received.It was kind of packaged inside of other compliments."You're a special person. You're not like other people..You're like... a deep sea diver of life. You just go out there every day and do what needs to be done. You're out there, in your mask and your oxygen tank, and you're swimming with the sharks...You just put one foot in front of the other, and you do what needs to be done. You write in your ameliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01370740221953398207noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6772334299117303290.post-46751053367204203832010-01-12T21:51:00.003-05:002010-01-12T22:08:26.606-05:00Definitely not at my best.So, I'm noticing that, although I have been able to gain a great deal of ground in the energy department, I am still feeling the effects of The Mono. I am back to working full time and I have been since the first week of December. I'm thankful for that, but I am definitely nowhere near the me I am used to being.I need obscene amounts of sleep. I get tired quickly. I have very little emotional or ameliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01370740221953398207noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6772334299117303290.post-74989600114913917262010-01-11T20:01:00.002-05:002010-01-11T20:04:43.794-05:00Sunday Best on Monday: The best movie I've paid to see in a long time.I watched Precious on Saturday. It's real, and then it's real some more. It should be required viewing for everyone in this country. ameliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01370740221953398207noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6772334299117303290.post-58963206541260147892010-01-10T21:44:00.002-05:002010-01-10T21:47:13.197-05:00The best excuse I can produce.I'm tired, I already don't want to get up tomorrow, and I'm consumed with dread about the coming of the dawn. I spent the day hiding from the world, and I really really want to continue to do so. At least I posted it.Thank you and goodnight.ameliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01370740221953398207noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6772334299117303290.post-14336361131656969022010-01-09T22:29:00.003-05:002010-01-09T22:34:35.044-05:00Saturday Best: Favorite Saturday Activitiessleep inlounge around for hourseat a bageldrink too much coffeecatch a movie at the independent cinemameet up with a friendhang out at a coffee shopeat snackslisten to chill music and think, write, blog, or just relax and stare off into spaceFYI, I did all of these things today, which should make it one of the best Saturdays I've had in a long time. I needed it so badly. I'm learning the Northernameliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01370740221953398207noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6772334299117303290.post-6424306269126053782010-01-08T23:57:00.001-05:002010-01-08T23:57:00.783-05:00Best Possible OutcomeI am going to try to get this post together as quickly and as coherently as possible. That might be a challenge, considering that I left the house at 6:45 AM and have just returned at about 11:30 PM. I spent the day taking Eric's mom to get her heart catheterization procedure re-done so that the surgeon could check the stent. It could have been a half-day trip, but the entry site at her artery ameliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01370740221953398207noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6772334299117303290.post-67194650312998960932010-01-07T20:49:00.001-05:002010-01-07T20:49:09.663-05:00Best New HabitEric got me started. It's something I used to do by myself all the time. Somehow, over time, I just fell out of the habit.Every week we set one night to meet up downtown… at the Tompkins County Public Library. That's right. I'm a weekly library patron!As far as smaller-city libraries go, this place is like Disneyland. They have a large selection of periodicals, a large selection of DVDs, and lotsameliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01370740221953398207noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6772334299117303290.post-36929433980291381032010-01-06T20:35:00.002-05:002010-01-06T20:44:19.646-05:00One of the best days I've had in a long time.I wasn't planning on writing about my day-to-day life during this little "best" challenge, but today just happened to be a great day. It didn't start out on the right foot. I woke up with what I call "mono pain" - the same aches I had when I was too tired and sore to even wash my hair. I groaned and hobbled my way to work, took a couple of extra strength Excedrin, and tried to settle gradually ameliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01370740221953398207noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6772334299117303290.post-39315544375634115302010-01-05T20:35:00.001-05:002010-01-05T20:35:51.463-05:00Best FriendI am blessed enough to have two people that I can call my best friends. I am unfortunate enough to have them live far away – one in Texas and one in Tennessee.Tonight, I received an unexpected phone call from BFF-TN. At the time she called, I promise you that I had just finished reading the following paragraph."A friend is not a friend when she doesn't want the best for you. A friend is not a ameliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01370740221953398207noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6772334299117303290.post-68606842085710062952010-01-04T20:49:00.002-05:002010-01-04T21:28:54.693-05:00Best is the Opposite of Worst.You know, as I sat here thinking about all of the great things I could write about, one thing kind of rose to the surface.Money. When I moved to New York State in August of 2007, I had very little savings, a six-week severance package from the ministry, and a depressingly large amount of credit debt. By October, I was almost out of money and even deeper in credit debt. By the end of October, I ameliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01370740221953398207noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6772334299117303290.post-39672140640565896132010-01-03T20:58:00.001-05:002010-01-03T20:58:03.829-05:00The Best Way to Work it OutSo, I'm not going to lie. Four posts in, and I'm already having some trouble with the "best" theme for this month. I mean, it's not a rule that my daily posts all fit within that theme, but I really wanted to do it as an exercise. I have pretty much decided that Saturdays will be lists and Sundays will be links. That leaves 5 days. I guess I could pick a sub-theme by week. I could write about theameliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01370740221953398207noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6772334299117303290.post-82737871588472165262010-01-03T09:14:00.003-05:002010-01-03T09:20:12.685-05:00Sunday Best: My Video Cure for a Bad MoodOK. You got me. Sometimes, the best way for me to get out of a bad mood is to watch some or all of the following videos. The last one can cheer me up no matter what.ameliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01370740221953398207noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6772334299117303290.post-29584897708031613202010-01-02T09:00:00.000-05:002010-01-02T09:00:03.726-05:00Saturday Best: Music for WritingI think I will dedicate Saturdays to lists. Today will be best writing music.Here is a handful, in no particular order:Joshua RadinSufjan StevensDenison WitmerColdplayAri HestRadioheadIron and WineJoseph ArthurJose GonzalezTrent DabbsElliott SmithWilliam FitzsimmonsMaybe someday I will write down an actual writing playlist, but that's a bit much to ask right now. ameliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01370740221953398207noreply@blogger.com